a realization.

So last night I sang with the Combined BYU Choirs (Singers, Concert Choir, Men's and Women's Chorus for the last time in a LOOONG time. Ok fine, just 2 ish years. But still.

That is easily one of my favorite things to do. Like seriously, it competes with playing Heldenleben with phil. I just love it sooo much!!

We sang "I Stand All Amazed" arranged by Zabrinskie. And it was sooo powerful. And yes I started crying my face off on stage. Partly because of the Spirit and partly because I realized, halfway through standing up there that this was going to be the last time I got to do this in awhile. And I got really sad. Really fast.

It's just weird. Cause I've been waiting to go on a mission for SUCH a long time. Like basically ever since J.J. went on his. And I've always thought it would just be sunshine and happiness to leave and serve a mission for 18 months, no sadness or missing anything from home. And don't get me wrong. It's gonna be AMAZING. I know that. But I also know that it's gonna be the hardest thing I ever do. And it's gonna be hard. Not only when I get out there, but it's gonna be hard to leave. To walk away from my family, My friends, the cello studio. To leave phil and women's chorus. To give up my job, my cello, my life.

Bahhhh. I'm excited. I am. It's just gonna be a sacrifice. But a bigger blessing, I am sure. I love this gospel. It's the reason I want to serve a mission. I want everyone to at least have a chance to hear this good news! even if they don't accept it at this time.

It's mission time. Almost. I'm stoked. And a quote from Joseph Smith to finish. That I love.

“a religion that does not require the sacrifice of all things never has the power sufficient to produce the faith necessary unto life and salvation.”

I LOVE Life.

The Church is True.

p.s. Jack my little bro got his mission call last night. He's going to Budapest, Hungary and is sooooooooo STOKED. and I'm stoked for him. He will do great things.

Now pup and I just needa get started on our papers :]